Monday, April 6

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

They say that breaking up is hard to do...Now I know, I know that it's true...Don't say that this is the end...

OK, so not that kind of breaking up, but it seems as though my beautiful baby girl is done nursing, and that is breaking my heart. She has moved on to better things bottles. It breaks my heart that she doesn't need me anymore. I miss our moments together. This picture was taken in August 2008 when we had our family pictures done by the fabulous ShelbyLeigh before leaving Maryland. I am so proud of myself for making it this far. I have come a long way from the girl who thought breastfeeding was "disgusting" and "unnecessary". It wasn't until I read 101 Reasons To Breastfeed that I realized how necessary it really was. For not only for my child but me as well. I nursed Jacob until he was 10 months old. He quit on his own too. Of course I was pregnant with Josslyn at the time, and had a fever of 103.0 so it could have just been that. I was hoping to make it to a year, but I am thinking that is never going to happen. I still try to get her to nurse at least once a day but she just plays, rolls over, or turns her head. I guess baby girl has more important things to do. If only she knew how important to me it is that she nurses, LOL. I wish I could pump and give it to her in a bottle but I can't pump for crap anymore. When my babies are first born I can nurse them and still pump 6.5oz right after. Now I'm lucky to get 1 oz from both sides put together. When Jacob stopped nursing I wasn't as sad because I knew I would get to nurse the next baby. Since we are done having children I know that I will never again get to nurse. I am more sad about this than not having anymore children. At least with that I have grandbabies to look forward to. I can't nurse my grandchildren. Well I could but I won't because that's a little weird, even for me, LOL.

12 comments:

Six Feet Under Blog said...

Following you from MBC!

Tena said...

{{{{{ gentle hugs }}}}
The sure do grow up and have fun, not realizing that is breaks the mama's heart! Good for you for making it that long. With my oldest I nursed him till he was 22 months, the last two we only went to a year.

Cat@3KidsandUs said...

You did a fantastic job! But I also know how you feel. My daughter Kaydence stopped nursing when I become pregnant with Emmaleigh at 14 months. It was heartbreaking for me. But reading this reminded me of what I have to look forward to with Emma (she's 5 weeks and I'm struggling with continuing to BF her).

~A~ said...

Rich will be happy to have the Chi Chi girls all to himself! :-)

Opus #6 said...

Gosh, that's the worst kind of break-up. All six of my kids weaned eventually and I still get tears in my eyes remembering the precious moments.

~Sandy~ said...

I hear ya on this one! my son nursed until i became preggo with my daughter...he was about 20 months old. My daughter weened herself around 14 months. It's just kind of sad, I feel like it makes them officially a toddler and not my little baby anymore. it's such a wonderful bonding experience. i follow your blog now and look forward to reading more! love all your pictures...they are beautiful :O)

tara said...

So bittersweet. Very awesome you were able to do it as long as you were!

Shana said...

Awww (((((Amanda)))) You did awesome going this long girl! And if in a couple days she misses it or just wants to do it once I say go for it.

Nicole Feliciano said...

That is big. Just know there will be other amazing ways to bond. Holding hands, talking, singing--it all comes in time.

Jennifer said...

LOL! Well, I'm glad you aren't seriously considering nursing your futur grandchildren! ;-)

I'm still nursing my baby, and I've decided to stop at one year... and I'm scared for that day to come! I'll miss it so much, too!

Nora said...

Kudos to you. My son is 10 months old and I'm still nursing. I plan to wean him at 12 months. It's so easy to soothe him though when he's sick and sleepy, and the bond is so special.

Gena said...

YAY Amanda! You did great! it's bittersweet indeed!